Cory- I know you'll be yelling for the Chargers tonight! (Along with your Dad!)

Hey Cory, Just wanted to let you know that Chris and Carrie has a little boy on Sunday night. His name is (get ready) Zoltan Jay Erdos. He was 8 lb.s 3 oz. and 20.5 inches long. He has big feet and big hands and will definitely make a fine soccer player. goalie material for sure. His big sister, Eliza, is so sweet with him. She couldn't wait for him to be born so she could see what he looked like. It's so hard to visit this site, because it brings back the reality of your loss to everyone. It's good to know that Chris' children have their own special angel to watch over them.

listening to transatlanticism - missing you cory.

happy b-day!

Happy 31st birthday, sweetheart!. We will be at Disneyland celebrating your birth and remembering the times we spent there together. Phoenix, Sage and Shea remember the last time you were there with them, Christian and Shannon in the summer of 2005. They are so happy they have that memory. Alexis and Landon are going with us also. I love and miss you.

miss you, and thought i should remind you that the half back option play with the 49rs in nfl gameday 99 is total horseshit!

Today, Christian and I had to take Samantha to be put to sleep. It was an extremely hard thing to do, but I know it was for the best and that she is now free of pain. I remember, as if it was yesterday, the day you talked me into having another dog and you then brought her home. She was such a wonderful dog - one of the gentlest I have ever known. She brought so much into our home, and I wish she was still here, but I know she is now with you. I love you honey.

Mother's Day will always be a bad day because you are not here. I spent the day at Christian's and he made a wonderful dinner for me. You would be pleased to know what a good cook he has become. He gave me tulips, which were two colors representing you and him, and said the stems and leaves were me supporting you both. We talked about you a lot and shared many memories. We will always be the "three musketeers." I love you.

Today is Easter and I rejoice in the resurrection of our Lord! I know you are with Him, and I know one day I will be with you again. I love and miss you and want so much to hold you.

You have been gone from us four years. I never stop thinking about you or the memories I have. As I do every year, I went to the soccer field tonight. It is always so hard, but I feel somewhat closer to you when I am there. I miss and love you more than I can possibly ever put into words.